Friday, December 23
Hmm. It's a cold christmas I guess. This year there's simply no festive mood in me. Or rather I just didn't want to go out and feel the festive mood. In fact, if I said I wanted the holidays to end faster, a lot of people will be hunting me down. Yeah. I really want the holidays to end faster.
I'm not complaining of anything. Saying that I'm consistently not free to relax by myself or do what I feel like doing, be it work or friends, is not me complaining about my life right now. I'm just stating stuff, talking them out so I feel better. Or maybe that IS complaining. Ah whatever.
I know I can't be saying much, because I happen to know a person who has a MUCH tighter schedule than I have, but I just feel like letting it all out. At least I understand how he feels, but then again, it's not the same. I'm looking at a calendar that's pinned onto my room's blackboard, and it's not reflecting any free days for me, myself and I. What I'm seeing is IH trainings, IH, meetings, choir, work to do, friends' obligations to meet. Blah, and the list goes on. No wonder I have no christmas mood.
(I'm writing all these at a very bad time. My writing reflects a lot of my mood, it's not in a very good one now, so this sounds extremely negative. Actually, if anytime else I were to rewrite my point again, it might just sound brighter. Ah well.)
I'm just feeling very tired. Argh.
Posted by Isabelle at 7:19 pm